When Asking for Grace Results in Near Despair
Indelible Grace is one of my all time favorite groups. One particular song has ministered greatly to me today (as I listened to it multiple times): “I Asked the Lord” (track #3 from their Beams of Heaven album). The hymn is by John Newton, set to music by Laura Taylor.
It’s a powerful testimony of God answering our prayer to grow in grace and faith by taking us through trial and adversity in order to bring us to the end of ourselves. The lyrics are below.
1. I asked the Lord that I might grow
In faith and love and every grace
Might more of His salvation know
And seek more earnestly His face
2. Twas He who taught me thus to pray
And He I trust has answered prayer
But it has been in such a way
As almost drove me to despair
3. I hoped that in some favored hour
At once He’d answer my request
And by His love’s constraining power
Subdue my sins and give me rest
4. Instead of this He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart
And let the angry powers of Hell
Assault my soul in every part
5. Yea more with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Cast out my feelings, laid me low
6. Lord why is this, I trembling cried
Wilt Thou pursue thy worm to death?
“Tis in this way” The Lord replied
“I answer prayer for grace and faith”
7. “These inward trials I employ
From self and pride to set thee free
And break thy schemes of earthly joy
That thou mayest seek thy all in me,
That thou mayest seek thy all in me.”
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